Nothing, Zilch, Nada

This week I’ve got nothing to write about. Believe you and me I wanted to be a bit more inspirational and inspiring than that but it aint happening this week!

Don’t worry I’m not in a bad place, stressed out or struggling to focus, quite the opposite really. I like to write my blog at the same time each week so in the couple of days leading up to it I start to think about subjects I want to write about and start planning things in my head. It got to today and there was still no flashes of inspiration, even taking the dog for a walk which usually helps failed to deliver any meaningful ideas.

So I thought  – sod it, what’s the worst that’s going to happen if I don’t write anything this week? My blog will still be there and I’d rather not write something just for the sake of it.

Once I reached this conclusion, I instantly felt calmer, more relaxed, I wasn’t panicking about getting my thoughts down. AA Milne was right. There is a value in doing nothing – I’m an expert in it and today served as a reminder! So much so that it inspired me to write about nothing!

If something is causing you too much stress and anxiety, take a break, move away, do something that helps you switch off. Or literally – do nothing. Find a quiet space, chill, and empty your thoughts. Think about when you’re on holiday, how good does it feel to switch off, lie on a beach and chill. Take mini holiday’s in your mind and see where it takes you.

Hopefully next week I’ll be able to write about something but today I’m pleased to be able to offer you nothing! x

Feeling the Love

Ok – I’m going to go there this week. Do you ever find yourself pondering about the meaning of life and wonder, what’s this all about?

I used to, until the penny dropped a few years ago and nothing has happened to shake my belief. It’s love – it’s got to be, hasn’t it? For me, a life without love has very little meaning. Once you open yourself up to receiving love and being able to give it unconditionally, your life starts to have more purpose, you begin to realise what we’re all here for, to use this wonderful gift for good, to make things better for those around us, to help us get through some challenging times and to help us grow.

Love can come from many sources, your soul mate, your family, your best mate, your pet. In fact animals are the best at giving and receiving love. I know that it doesn’t matter what kind of day I’ve had my dopey dog will be there at the door, wagging his tail and so pleased to see me! All he asks for in return is to be fed, walked and have a bit of a fuss and attention now and then!

I admit love can be scary, making that commitment and saying the words takes a huge amount of courage and sometimes it isn’t always requited. Believe me it becomes easier as you get older and you learn from mistakes and experiences. In some ways it’s a good thing that love can be scary. Love can be so powerful that saying it without commitment or meaning dilutes the impact both for yourself and for the person receiving.

When I was physically and mentally ill in 2017 it was messages and examples of love that were as powerful as any medication. Knowing that I had people who loved me, who wanted me to get better and knowing that the people I loved needed me was massive and got me through.

So we’re now into February, the month of love. If you’re in that amazing place where you have a soul mate, (and again, it doesn’t have to be human) make sure they know how you feel, say the words. Life will instantly become a little bit better – I promise! If you’re not in that place yet, enjoy the journey, live and learn. The destination is beautiful!

As usual, I would love to hear your thoughts x


Mental Health at Work

Last Thursday there was a massive step forward in recognising that mental health should have parity with physical health in the workplace.

Thanks to the excellent #wheresyourheadat campaign, led by the brilliant Natasha Devon a petition was launched which collected over 200,000 signatures. This was more than enough signatures to trigger a debate in parliament which took place last week. See – that’s how democracy and parliamentary sovereignty can work, we’ve always had it! Ok – no more Brexit talk this week! The outcome of the debate was that MP’s from all sides agreed to back a motion to introduce legislation which would put mental and physical health on an equal footing through first aid regulation.

Still some way to go but this is a big step forward, it now seems a case of when not if this will happen. The campaign has been backed by major businesses, mp’s from across the board and members of the public. I know that progress is being made and that a lot of employers are taking mental health at work seriously. But imagine if this became enshrined in law so that nobody got left behind.

Hopefully it would mean phrases like, “pull yourself together” “man-up” “get over it” become phrases of the past Every employer has to have a physical first aider, under the legislation employers will also have to have a mental health first aider. Somebody trained to spot the signs for when someone maybe struggling and for people to go to when they’re feeling unwell. Makes sense doesn’t it! From an employers point of view it should help reduce sickness, increase productivity and all that guff! More importantly it will hopefully give more employees more confidence to admit that they’re struggling knowing that they’re going to receive help instead of suspicion.

MHFA England were also behind the #wheresyourheadat campaign. They are a fantastic organisation who deliver training to staff on how to be a mental health first aider among many other things. MHFAEngland

I attended the 2 day course at the end of 2017 and can highly recommend it. I was at a stage in my own mental health journey where this course helped me immensely and gave me some tools and the confidence to be able to help others.

After the course I wanted to give something back and so I wrote a blog for MHFA explaining how the course had helped me and to encourage others to attend if given the opportunity.

Somethings a chat is all it takes.

What are things like in your workplace? Could your employer be doing more or is there good practice taking place that deserves to be shared?

Final word, if you are struggling please get help. I know it takes strength and courage to ask for help at a time when you’re not feeling particularly strong or courageous but help is always there. I’m more than happy to help point you in the right direction. Feel free to message me or get in touch.

Take care x

Conflict and Compromise

Have we forgotton how to compromise? I’m using a very general “we” some of you may be brilliant at it.

I ask the question because our brilliant, diverse country seems more divided than ever. It seems that when it comes to certain tissues you need to pick your side, hold and defend it with everything you’ve got even when presented with evidence that completely contradicts your point and destroys your argument.

The most obvious example of this is Brexit. You’re either a Leaver or Remainer. I’m desperate for us to stay in the EU, I’ve campaigned for it, taken part in marches, emailed people, signed petitions, joined groups, tweeted, facebooked the lot. For this I’ve been called a traitor, libtard, snowflake etc. On the other side side I’ve seen leavers called thick, un-educated, racist, gammon, the lists go on.

The country is split and divided more now than I can remember for a long time. Some people were triggered last week because Greggs introduced a Vegan Sausage Roll! I was hoping that 2019 would be the year we started to come back together. Unfortunately I’ve seen no sign of this, I fear that things are going to get much worse before they get better. When Jo Cox was murdered you would have hoped people would have learnt from that awful tragedy. Instead can anybody confidently predict that something similar won’t happen again soon.

So  – how do we come back together? It’s got to be by compromise, surely? Look back through history, how are disputes settled when there is no clear winner? They’re resolved by settlements, by each side giving a little in order to feel like they have still gained something. Think about when you have had an argument with a loved one. How did you resolve it? Compromise is not a sign of weakness, it’s a strength. It demonstrates that you’re prepared to listen and accept that the other side may have some vaild points and grievances. That can take courage.

Going back to Brexit , the unfortunate thing is one side will eventually “win” and there is going to be a lot of unhappy people. I guess what we have got to do is stop the name calling and the confrontations and the assumptions about what type of person is a remainer or leaver. I accept that people voted Leave for lots of different reasons and they do have some valid reasons. Having said that, if you voted Leave because you don’t like foreigners or people who have different coloured skin please don’t read this blog or follow me. What we need to do is look at the reasons why people felt the way they did when they voted and start to do something about it. If not, we learn nothing and we remain divided. When this is over there will be no winners, not really. So I hope that there is no gloating or posturing. There is so much work to do to bring us back together. Just remember what it was like when the 2012 Olympics were on. That is the country I love and am proud of! 

Knowing that is what this country is capable of gives me hope that we can get it back. We all have a part to play but the press and politicians need to start telling us the truth. If you’re struggling to know who to trust and who to believe, stop and think – what’s in it for this person, what have they got to gain from holding this point of view. It works for me!

On a more positive note my blog received it’s first award from another blogger at the weekend! It made my day, knowing that people are reading this and taking something from my blogs is massive to me.

I would love to know what you think of today’s blog and if you have any examples of when you have had to compromise in order to get an outcome. I would also be happy to try and answer any questions you may have about Brexit, I’m getting slightly obsessed!!

Take care x

Happy New Year

Hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas and New Year and has now strapped into their seats ready for the ride 2019!

Did you feel Christmassy this – sorry, last year? Did you get a warm glow and that nice feeling where you think that anything is possible? I heard friends and family say they “didn’t feel Christmassy” or that “it doesn’t feel like Christmas anymore”. I will admit that I used to feel like this. It’s impossible to get that excitement and anticipation you used to feel as a child but that doesn’t mean that the special Christmassy feeling has to disappear.

What is that feeling and where does it come from? The shops try and sell their version of Christmas, advising us what we should be wearing, what gadgets we must have, what foods everybody is eating this year. Those same shops who tried to sell the magic last month are now selling us goods and products to beat the New Year blues and selling products and foods that we need to get back in shape after over indulging in their products last month!

I sometimes feel a bit Christmassy from watching certain programmes, not EastEnders but Call the Midwife does get me every year! There is a film that I watch every Christmas that always leaves a massive impact  – It’s a Wonderful Life. It’s a film set at Christmas but for me it’s about life, it’s about the impact we can all make and about the footprint we leave behind and what would happen if we weren’t around. It’s a truly beautiful film.

After my trials and tribulations of the last 18 months I appreciate this film and it’s message even more. The main character isn’t perfect, he has his faults but he puts others first, he got satisfaction from seeing people happy and doing what he could to make a difference and help people and his community. Without giving too much away, the ending is about what can happen and what people will do for us if we live that kind of life.

This is what I now think about when I think about Christmas but even better these values and the feeling that comes from them doesn’t have to be confined to Christmas. They can be applied every day. Little things can make a massive difference. I had a bit of a de-clutter this weekend and took some clothes and coats that I don’t need anymore to my local clothes bank today. The lady there explained that they were expecting a homeless guy in later who will really appreciate the coats. That’s blown me away to be honest and given me such a nice feeling – see, we can have Christmas everyday!

So when we took the decorations down last week I didn’t get that flat feeling that I used to get. I’m ready to face the year, to do what I can and to be ready to deal with the ups and downs that will inevitably come.

Bring it on!!

It was Christmas Eve Babe

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My favourite day of the year. Today is just one of those amazing days where we get to suspend belief and any kind of logic and we get to believe in magic and hold on to that sense of anticipation and excitement.

I don’t care how old you are, don’t let anybody tell you that the big guy in the red suit isn’t real, of course he is! A big jolly guy who spreads joy, love, gifts. A guy who can make children behave just by mentioning his name and letting them know that he might be watching and making a list. A guy who doesn’t discriminate who can bring smiles to faces and turn tears to laughter. Nobody is going to tell me that he isn’t real. The reason I know this? It’s because we can all have these feelings we can all be the person who spreads, joy, love, happiness and makes people smile, who looks for the best in people, not the worst. We can all be Santa, especially at Christmas. It’s the perfect time to try. I know it’s hard but we can all find the motivation to be better people and to be kinder to people.

The other reason, I love Christmas Eve is because of something that happened over 2000 years ago. I can’t give you any evidence that it happened but I just believe that it did. I believe that we were sent a gift from God to show us light and to show us hope and to show us love. This gift didn’t arrive gift wrapped in fancy expensive paper. He was delivered to us in a manger, witnessed by shepherds, angels, wise men and animals. This gift wasn’t given to kings and queens to look after, an ordinary man and woman were chosen. This gift wasn’t for only those who could afford it, he came for everyone.

This Universe and the people within it are amazing, are beautiful, are special, are unique. Having my faith in this event that happened on this day helps me see just how great this world can be and helps me see the beauty that surrounds us each and every day.

I hope you have an amazing Christmas with the ones you love. If you have little ones, share their joy, their excitement. Have a look through their eyes, it’s amazing.

Peace x

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Birthday Blog

It was my birthday last Friday. I’m now nearer 50 than 40! I feel like I should be sharing some of my wisdom and knowledge onto you youngsters. But everyday I learn more about how to approach life from young people and it is mainly young people who constantly inspire me and give me hope for the future. Which is just as well because they are going to have to deal with a lot of shit that older generations are going to leave behind.

Passing my birthday milestone this year has helped me reflect on the events of the past 12 – 18 months and helped me realise that I have probably learnt more about myself and what truly matters over this period than over the previous 44 years. So for today’s blog i hope you don’t mind me indulging in these reflections and processes that have got me to this point.

1 – I’m a survivor (there’s a song title somewhere)                                                         

I came through a major 10 hour operation which was the trigger for my re-evaluation. It wasn’t meant to be major but things went wrong I ended up in ITU, needed another 3 “procedures”, got sepsis, went back into ITU for a week and ended up staying in hospital for 6 1/2 weeks. I was on some big drugs that meant i saw quite a few freaky things. But I survived, it’ll take more than that to finish me off!

2- I’m no longer afraid to try new things.                                                         

I’ve always wanted to try Yoga but never thought it would be for me. This year i tried it and love it! It’s the perfect exercise for me. I would never have previously thought about writing a blog but this year i gave it a go. It’s cathartic, it’s helpful. I still don’t know where i’m going to go with it, which is actually one of the great things about it. If nobody else reads this, it’s still helped me.

3 – I can live without alcohol.

True – this one has kind of been forced upon me as a result of the op but if somebody had said 2 years ago that I would be one of those people you hear about who don’t drink I might have looked at you a bit funny. It’s actually ok, i’ve been on holidays to a music festival, nights out and still had a great time. To have the option would still be nice and there are lots of occasions when a little drink helps but I know I can do it.

4 – I  don’t feel guilty for finding more time for me.                                                                   

I practice the piano more, I go to Yoga classes, I find time to make sure I read and set myself some time to do this. Before I might have felt a bit guilty but now I know how important it is! I still make sure I don’t neglect anyone or anything, it’s all about the balance!

5 – The Universe is beautiful!                                                              

At the end of May I go away camping for a weekend, no internet/Wi-Fi, no tv, we get washed in a river, it’s amazing. This year I found myself finding a quiet spot where all I could hear, was the sound of wind on the trees, the birds singing and the sound of the river. It was beautiful and I found it more spiritual than ever before. I found myself being able to appreciate the power of the universe. The nature that surrounded me was there long before I came along and it will be there for a long time after I’ve gone. It makes sense to appreciate it and enjoy it.

6 – I haven’t reached my potential!

Not by a long way. My best years are still ahead of me, not behind me. I now feel more confident to grasp opportunities that come along and to truly find out what i’m capable of. The really exciting part is not knowing when these opportunities will come along or how they will happen but bring it on, I’m ready!